BEFORE ACTIVITY
Just before I eat lunch I will be lining up my students to go to lunch. I will be wearing something like dress pants and a top or a dress. I am probably feeling a little stressed because my students struggle getting into a straight line. I am also probably feeling pretty happy because I know I'll have a break. I don't think I'll be that anxious about eating lunch alone. I doubt I'll be stressed but I do think I'll be a little bored and a little lonely. I will attempt to smile and be confident. I will also picture myself smiling and confident as I finish my lunch and pick up my students at the field from lunch.
AFTER ACTIVITY
Eating lunch alone was surprisingly nice. I normally only like to be alone in my classroom, when I getting ready for the day or during my prep. The windowless room makes me depressed. Yet as I was eating alone, I got the chance to just relax. I didn't have to worry about kids shouting or doing math problems. I got to take a few minutes and sit in my room in peace. The quiet was a little strange in the middle of day, but it allowed my ears to rest and I felt rather good. Toward the end of the lunch period I did get bored and decided to read a book. This allowed me to take a few extra minutes to do something just for me and not for my students. I was able to walk out the field and be more confident than normal because I had peaceful time to really recharge instead of listen to complaints or adolescent drama. Perhaps I should eat alone every day. Yet I do think I would miss the connection it builds with my coworkers and students. While relationships are draining because the amount of energy they require they are also what makes us human. While peace is helpful for sanity, I would surely go insane if I didn't have relationships with students and coworkers.
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